Life has turned I suppose interesting or boring.

Life has turned I suppose interesting or boring. I don’t know –it’s kind of interesting in the sense, I am feeling energetic. This is the basic that I need to move on; I know some of you say “ One love”. It’s good for you. For me, I think, at this age – not that way. I have some vague purposes and I haven’t yet taken it seriously. When will you take it seriously? I would like to question myself at the early age of 40s. Still, life is going on as it is the way I want.

Seriously, I know what to do. I know the strategy to follow. I don’t know what I am waiting for. Maybe the right time to start? My procrastination still continues. I want to gather up strengths that don’t just befall all at the same time. Silly me? I think I have no utmost desire to do what I want.  If I do, what I want, this may hamper my family? Or I am fearful of a new situation in my life. Yes, Adventurous I should be by doing that. What is that thing that I want to do? Am I clear? Yep, Clarity is required.

Wondering Typhoon! That’s something required to do for what I want. In the long run, I am going to see and feel good for what I will have done. I am sure, that doesn’t stop there. I think it will stop there – The end. The two-minds just come up and duality begins, Ufff. Though this, I am enjoying myself. I like being like this. There is no surety of anything that exists except the sunrise in the east and set in the west. What a life!!

You need a break. Go for a break. Treat yourself but I do this always. What else I need again? The beginning doesn’t begin there and it is a never-ending loop of thoughts! Alas! Procrastinations – how can I win? How can I continue to exist? Frankly, I haven’t yet thought about the future self of being myself that how will be my life at the age of 60 or 70s. Come on that’s tooo far, how about 55?

Moving into a new direction which I think of possibility someday!!!

'We move to a new direction'

Even though we are in the home which we have been living for ages, now once again we are moving to a new direction of hope and clear goals. I might have thought it in my dream once upon a time. This actually has turned in a U- direction once we realized it to be one day anyhow. Time has a sense of design to be happen one day. Again, I ask myself, "Why One day?"

After all, we set the time in a clock to be ring just after it will be accomplished. Not exactly the CLOCK!! But, this analogy seems fit to this.

Cuts and turns of plans and actions. They are of conscious strategies though happened itself involuntarily. "Involuntarily" Because previously all actions are of free will without a direction; "grabbing all what lies on the streets." Trying everything until to reach the end. Clock's ticking~~~!!

I am thinking of the time back, how did I reach here? I believe it is just the moment when I had an intention and discussed about with my wife. This is as simple as that. Again, I ask myself. "Why One day, It's not ending now?" Because I think we are in a momentum and we do have a sense of direction which is of course has taken a course in a direction where the time has set.

What's the plan?

Why don't I tell what's the plan straightforwardly ? It's already there in some dimension of parallel world. I just put that into a perspective, so never mind!

I have been there many times into a situation like this where I had to expose my plan. I went around talking to everyone my plans and this and that. Finally at the end, it never happened. I ask myself, "Why one day to be discussed?" IF it has to be one day, never tell anybody until it happens that day.

I have just told all of ourselves being in a new direction. Learning again, I should say!! This has been after a long duration of my time of living four decades or so on this planet. Am I an extraterrestrial being? Oops!! Tongue slipped again!!

A new confidence of realization, as it happens. 

You can get whatever you want. And, it is possible!  Before making it happen, just think of the consequences. Can YOU HANDLE THE HEAT??? So, Be wise before making it happen. Think of this, Do you really want this happen?

Desires in a Human are enormous. Choose one to manifest and then next, a next again and so on. We are in a loop to be on earth born again on here though different scenario and circumstances. So, Many great Mahatmas told not to be in a loop of desires entangled for to be born again on earth to sail through the winds of sufferings and pains.

SO, NEVER EVER HAD A DESIRE OR SO BEFORE IN MY LIFE.... SAILING WHERE THE WIND WILL TAKE.

LEARNING AGAIN, COME ON!!!!!

Festival at the corner but....................

Dashain festival at the corner but the city is still suffering from blockades, scarcity, price hikes, no gasoline and no adequate buses, tempos, and taxis on the street.

New government is forming as a consequence of new constitution in Nepal. Whether India, the neighbour country wants or supports what is happening inside Nepal,  this is the way we do, the new government is telling to the people and the world. Talks are still going on and soon from the nepalese government, a Ministerial visit to India is going to be held.

India wants certain things to be included in our constitution. Staying in the cocoon of the city and home, whether those demands of the neighbor are appropriate or inappropriate, we can't tell by  looking just staying in the city. It won't be fair enough to judge that way.

China on the other hand ready to help. Even though, due to its cultural barrier, language barrier which are more smooth towards India, Nepal whole heartedly not able to pass the decision to access fuels and other things from China. And also, due to recent earthquakes, the roads are being damaged or need to clean it up the debris from landslides that went further to worsen the situation. More over, to the nepalese government, the transaction from china is a bit expensive than it is from India.

Nevertheless of all, festival season started already in Nepal. With no carbon fuel and cooking gas, cooking in the kitchen is difficult but thank god, electricity is on. A multi purpose Rice cooker is getting very helpful in this worse situation. These Rice cooker are generally chinese or indian as well.

A queue in the petrol station is long. Although they queued, some gets and the others don't. Fuels are not enough for the whole. Even, due to high demand of gasoline, black marketing of it sold in  high prices. Similarly, there is a price hike in vegetables, fruits, cereals, and salt.

Lets hope the situation will be settled soon and we will be back to normal again. We do not even have risen up enough from the trauma of huge devastating earthquakes here in Nepal, This blockade from the indian border worsen the situation further. Anti indian spirits have risen up in us the nepalese, but this won't do good enough until we rely on ourselves in everything what we need.