Thursday, October 17, 2019

Life has turned I suppose interesting or boring.

Life has turned I suppose interesting or boring. I don’t know –it’s kind of interesting in the sense, I am feeling energetic. This is the basic that I need to move on; I know some of you say “ One love”. It’s good for you. For me, I think, at this age – not that way. I have some vague purposes and I haven’t yet taken it seriously. When will you take it seriously? I would like to question myself at the early age of 40s. Still, life is going on as it is the way I want.

Seriously, I know what to do. I know the strategy to follow. I don’t know what I am waiting for. Maybe the right time to start? My procrastination still continues. I want to gather up strengths that don’t just befall all at the same time. Silly me? I think I have no utmost desire to do what I want.  If I do, what I want, this may hamper my family? Or I am fearful of a new situation in my life. Yes, Adventurous I should be by doing that. What is that thing that I want to do? Am I clear? Yep, Clarity is required.

Wondering Typhoon! That’s something required to do for what I want. In the long run, I am going to see and feel good for what I will have done. I am sure, that doesn’t stop there. I think it will stop there – The end. The two-minds just come up and duality begins, Ufff. Though this, I am enjoying myself. I like being like this. There is no surety of anything that exists except the sunrise in the east and set in the west. What a life!!

You need a break. Go for a break. Treat yourself but I do this always. What else I need again? The beginning doesn’t begin there and it is a never-ending loop of thoughts! Alas! Procrastinations – how can I win? How can I continue to exist? Frankly, I haven’t yet thought about the future self of being myself that how will be my life at the age of 60 or 70s. Come on that’s tooo far, how about 55?

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Tug of war within me and my outside territory with surroundings.

Alas~ what a life so far. Struggling inside and with the outside forces - push and pull. Yeah, I am alive!

I see the tug of war between Rich vs Poor. I can't define this in that way because In what ways we can say he is rich or he is poor? Solely on economic terms? Yuck! what an attitude! That's an ugly way to interpret if he has a car in the family - then he is rich! What a ridiculous statement is this.

I define prosperity in the following ways.

If you have access to the resources, then you are rich.
If you are happy today, then you are rich.
If you have enough foods to eat and enough water to drink then you are rich.
If you have clean, safe clothes to wear, then you are rich.
If you don't have to live in dirty places, then you are rich.
If you are capable to change your situation, then you are rich.
If you are self-reliant and independent then you are rich.
If you can do what you want, then you are rich.
If you are free to do in your life whatever you desire, then you are rich enough to live.

So, the question is nowadays of equality. The gap between rich vs poor. Can you imagine those living in a lofty and beautiful house, are they have all those mentioned above? I think, 50% could be still under poverty.

There are extreme outside for those who even struggle for a roti a day. Are those exist today in Kathmandu Valley? They need to be addressed. Especially girls who have their own struggling as they grow up into adolescence. But let's not ignore boys in this case as well.

Personally, I feel struggling with the people for those in the name of the minority, they want to use the whole piece of cake. I felt second class in front of them. There are men who can't speak up for their rights because the image of women empowerment and image are largely in the screen of society.
We the men support women, and vice versa. Equality begins this way. No, any other ways.